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August 22 New BlogI have had it with this blogging service, its too dammed slow, too dammed uncustomizable and too dammned messed up. I have decided to move my blog to the link below. See ya fellas there.
sinergystarfall.wordpress.com August 20 Kindness Can Kill.........When a friend in need calls you as a personal 911 address and you go and help. Sounds like the right thing to do eh? But here is the thing, is helping the fella all the way out really a good idea? Sometimes giving things on a silver platter is not the best course of action, once stuff is done that way people may not know how to do things for themselves. On top of that you will get trouble for yourself because you will have to divert attention from your own work. I have made a pledge to make myself less kind towards people. Would this be a turn for the better? Only time will tell. I will still treat those who matter like before but those excess baggage can go kiss my ass. August 13 Burnt OutIts a crucial week in my course and I am procrastinating like fukk. Why you might ask, well to put it simply the pressure has gotten to me, I can't do any work whatsoever. Two semesters ith no real breaks in between really gets to you and night class wont help. I must soldier on and march forward despite my mental state, may god give me that strength to do so.........
I wish I can still rock out (see below) like I used to and forget my troubles. Back then the worse that can happen would be I get my ass kicked by my mom and perhaps drop grades. Now the stakes are higher, if I falter my groupmates and friends will be let down. I must be resolute in finnishing the task at hand..........
August 07 Always........But you can't see his blood It's nothing but some feelings That this old dog kicked up It's been raining since you left me Now I'm drowning in the flood You see I've always been a fighter But without you I give up Now I can't sing a love song Like the way it's meant to be Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore But baby, that's just me And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always Now your pictures that you left behind Are just memories of a different life Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry One that made you have to say goodbye What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair To touch your lips, to hold you near When you say your prayers try to understand I've made mistakes, I'm just a man When he holds you close, when he pulls you near When he says the words you've been needing to hear I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine To say to you till the end of time Yeah, I will love you baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always If you told me to cry for you I could If you told me to die for you I would Take a look at my face There's no price I won't pay To say these words to you Well, there ain't no luck In these loaded dice But baby if you give me just one more try We can pack up our old dreams And our old lives We'll find a place where the sun still shines And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always College Fukkin SUCKS !!!College friggn sucks ! This week and those that come after will make me DIE. I am thinking of a multitude of ways to kill myself now. I got 2 fukkin tests this fukkin friday and god knows what else. The stress level is getting to me and i just begged a few people to kill me. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
And now my new idol of hatred, Mr Saw. Its not that I hate the guy but when u seen him 4 times in the time span of 2 years on a daily basis teaching you maths, it will drive you nuts. He even invaded my dreams, a few times in my dreams I will be doing what I do in my dreams and then next thing I know I will hear Mr Saw say "Any Questions?~~~~~" in his ever gay sounding mre feminine that thou voice.
ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHH KILLLLLL MMMMMMEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! August 05 Kiara Jazz FestToday was quite a day fo me. I went to Kah Yee's party for awhile to wish her Happy Birthday and hung out for awhile. Then I darted all the way to Mont Kiara to watch Cosmic Funk Express's last performance together before they disband and along the way lost RM 100 of cash, thank god that Cher Hao helped me out, sometimes its buddies like this from high school who will help u out in times of need. IF you are reading this Cher Hao, thank you, really means alot to me. We watched cosmic funk express, boy were they awesome as usual. Zack was in tears when he left the stage, I must find out their techno influenced song, it's my favourite song from them. After the last song we say this band of uncles who did pop and funk covers but we were unfortunately not that enthused bout them, the lead singer gave us some laughs though since he looks alot like Sami Veloo. I met teko there, I didnt know thy were coming, I wanted to join them for awhile but the gang wanted to leave for yum cha.After that we went to Uncle Don's to yum cha and had shisha. The first serving of shisha was abit too strong for the gang so Kok, Cher Hao and I had to take most of it. We talked cock and laughed all the way, Su Ann was quite racist at that tme though since she got offended twice today by "interesting" people. We left roughly around 1.30 AM or so. Quite a nice Friday night actually. August 03 3 Stupid Things Guys Say - Dumbass Strikes BackThis is the second installment of the exiting trilogy written hopelessly by yours truely here and based on vendes ballsbuster. Scenario 2 A guy english speaking bonehead aka himbo goes to a nice and happening pub and this happens club ....... himbo: hey, are you a good catch? girl: errr......yea why? himbo : good, catch me 'cause im falling for u. Coment: LOL, aint that a the pickup line of the century. These guys just think everybody are dumb blondes. This my friends are products of guys who watch too much the simple life and listen too much to mainstream bullcrap.
-end of rant- August 01 RipoffThis is something i decided to ripoff Jini"s blog :P
Confession : I am a female that loathes shopping. Don't ask me why.
Anyways, the whole motive was just to get the pair of sneakers that i'm so in love with right now. Which then leads me to today's issue. Why I HATE shopping...
I hate the idea of walking through 10 shops and returning back to the first one to get the item you want.
I hate the fact that we are left with so many options. Yes, having so many options leaves me frustrated because of the fact i'm wasting my time contemplating on a clothing item when i can spare all that critical thinking for something more important.
I hate going in and out of the fitting room trying on a gazillion items only to find out everything looks like crap and looking at the size tag just makes me far more depressed.
I hate the fact when you have the wrong shopping buddies you just get bad advice and something that looks crappy on you suddenly becomes a charm just to make you feel better.
I hate the fact that we spend so much time and money shopping. Which part of that is therapy? You get back all the stress in the world once you realised how tired you are and how much you spent and how many items you bought that you doubt you'd ever wear.
Well, those are my reasons why I hate shopping. Even my best friend notices it, after i go shopping i tend to be a little edgy due to the frustration of deciding. I know i'm weird but i'm just being comfortable in my own skin. Thank you.
Also not to forget, this is the most important piece of advice my girls should know. The best person to shop with is a guy. Why? They tend to give the most honest opinion whether you like it or not. Then most importantly you get the shopping done FAST! Now, isn't that just fabulous?
After all of the ranting. This is what i bought for me. I got a shoe thing. It's the only thing i bother spending the effort to shop for. No fitting rooms. Yes! So there's my puma speed cat. It isn't something that's special but i just like it. so bugger off! July 31 3 Stupid things Guys Say......Scenario One:
Ah Beng dates this gal and they are in love, or at least the hopless excuse of a guy thinks so. Then he goes and ask the gal:
AhBeng: Lets Couple !!
Coment: DUDE, this is not a Love Hina flash dating sim or any other dating sim for that matter. It just sounds wrong, can't you be more romantic or subtle? Then again the Ah Lian hes dating probably wont understand him if he tries since Ah Beng stupidity and refined courtship pactices don't go hand in hand.
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My mental faculties arent at full speed today, the other two wil have to wait. The next installmentof this trilogy will be coming to a screen near you.
p.s - all thx to vendes or this blockbuster, balls busting, awe inspiringly epic idea :P
Memories and *Gasps* TamagotchiJust now I just dug out my old SMDJ yearbooks and boy did it bring back memories. Both good and bad, most revolving around Ethan, Cher Hao, Su Ann, Choon Kiat and Kraynn to name a few. All those days when I bitched and moaned about how crappy the high school's overly competitive people over everything and how much image mattered there. Now, looking back I'd give almost anything to go go back to those days. Lets face it, the stress level in school is much lower and even if you fail(only flunked add maths though) there are no resit fee's, no admin fellas to hound you and all. The worse that can happen would be that your parents will probably pincemeal you and crucify. Chicks were plentiful too eventhough most were untouchable, I honestly wish I can go back......
Today I just realized that the god forsaken tamagotchi is back in head and seeking users to buy them. My goodness people actually drove all the way to buy them in MidValley and I always wondered whats the appeal of the damn thing. People get killed using them in Japan. On yea Nick, hope your little new purchase will win you the heart of your brunette *winks* July 25 Racism Towards Malaysian-Chinese MinortiyFor those who can't read chinese, the words underneath that video reads:
"On an evening of 17th July 2006, a group of 50 MALAY dudes cornered another group of Chinese students who were having some charity event in the cafeteria. And it is obvious that these Bumi students, trying to show who is the master of the land, barking and shouting at the Chinese group. They even shoved a Chinese girl on the floor."
Hmmm, with incidents like this, it really makes you wonder if it is possible for true racial intergration when these Malay supremacists go around being Nazis towards other races. I shall refrain from making anymore inflamitory remarks and lelt thevideo speak for itself. July 16 Sickness & Despair......Well, there goes my plan to study for FCM. Halfway thru the studying session my mom asked me to fetch her to tesco and to taman tun pasar malam. On top of that I am not feelinf well....may god have mercy on my soul when FCM test comes. July 15 Bimbos.......It's becoming a trend for the fairer sex to end up as bimbos. Why is that you might ask, the answer is simple, the mass media. I mean seriously, in the chinese media its propagated by Taiwanese bullcrap of an excuse of pop culture where being overly cute is the way to go. Nowadays girls walk around dressed up trying to be a taiwanese girl. I got news for you, most of you people fail badly in the attempt, all the cute haircuts, puffed up lips and weird ass colored dresses dont work for you. IF you look like a jap, korean or taiwanese girl there is a chance that it may work but the thing is it doenst work for all of you people. Just the other day a friend of mine saw a not too good looking girl dress up with a striking ghostbusters slime green shirt, a jumpsuit with a skirt. black pants, colourful striped socks, green sneakers and a pink sweater. Her gold with green streaks hair tied up on both sides of her hair like a small girl added insult to injury. I mean look, do what suits your looks good for yourself and for gods sake be smart. They are so obcessed with sounding cute and acting like bloody Paris Hilton they are making a joke out of the women who fought for equality for women. I mean these idiots WILL NEVER make it in the working world, we cant have bimbos running around doing Java while inputting a britney spears song for code. How do you expect men to take you seriously with attitude like that? The subspecies of bimbos known as Ah Lians act liek bloody pariah Japanese/Taiwanese posers are the most prevailent in Malaysia for thos who dunno which subspecies im talking about. What is the world coming to?
Why can't you girls understand te saying more with less? You can look good with just T-Shirt and jeans you know. Even if you wanna do something over the top, do it sparringly, guys that are worth knowing wont want to be together with a chiristmas tree of fashion horrors. Classy and elegant is everlasting while cuteness dont last and fake over the top cuteness is a horror worthy of steven king's novels.
-end of rant- July 14 Vanity...Hmmmm, I was just thinking. Do looks really matter? Some say what matters inside is what that matters when you wanna get into any form of relationship. Better to have a not so good looking intelectual person rahter than a good lookin bimbo. Sounds sensible doesnt it? Well unfortunately in practice its not that easy, people tend to gravitate towards good looking, charismatic and not necessarily brainy fellas since these people are always on the in crowd and as for women, do you honestly wanna date and hold hands with a woman thats "not too attractive(I'm just using a more politically correct term since calling them fat- ooops, nvm)" in public and mary her and face her on ur every waking moment? When it comes to frens I don't really mind their looks but when it comes to a girlfrend, now thats diff because I beleive that when you go with a partner, she must have the perfect balance of personality and looks. Let's face it, one reason why we get women is that so we have a reserved reproduction machine. Of cos I can never stand being in a converstation with a bimbo, aint life interesting.
Just another pointless thing that I think of when I smoke....
July 13 Of Assignments and Terorists *metal riff*I finally fukkin completed the PD assignment, most of it anyways. Was easier than expected, I still wish Mr. Elangovan would reove the word count, it really screws up certain parts of the reports since we have to crop so many parts.
My rant of the day would be terorists, as shown in recent years they have becomemore daring and more importantly increasingly ruthless in their methods. I just do not get it, they go beheading people and blowing up stuff and all but to what end? In the end of the day, the powers that be in the end of the day will still stay on top. So fukkin what if you cause their fuel prices to go up or maybe make them withdraw from an occupied nation. In the end of the they who will you go crawling to for business or aid when disaster strikes? Thus far it has been the very same western nations that have been bailing you bastards out (Indonesian Tsunami, Indonesian Earthquakes, etc). Intesresting isn't it? They are all unified when it comes to preaching hate and making statements talking bou imperialism but when a nation from your club gets into trouble you people only give token statements, small amounts of cash or just keep quiet, are you people swimming in your oil or something? To make matters worse since now they wanna terorize the world, they are giving hard line 'hawk' politicians all the reason to opress your people more as shown by the recent Isreali strikes on Palestine and Lebanon. Why don't ypu people wise up and find another way around or perhaps learn to live with the world. What that does not kill you makes you stronger.
If you really want to change the middle east, you can start with your own governments for a change. It was they who brought ur nations to what it is now an allowed the west to do what it does. Your own damn governments neglect you people, should'nt you be bombing them and getting ur freedom out of them? BLowing up a western nation won't really help since your own governments are more than eager to nail you people. Besides, what have you poeple achived by bobing them? Nothing but pain and sorrow...
Pardon the rant if its inflamatory but seriously read it with an open mind.... Girlfriends....Lets face it, every guy at one point of his youth would want a girlfriend. It may be induced by peer pressure, lust or just attraction towards someone. The reality is that getting one is the easy part, maintaining the relationship is the one thats the hard part.
Relationships are obviously fun in the beginning since everything is new and fresh but later when you know each other well it WILL get stale. They will see each others faults much more clearly and may even grow to despise each other towards the end of the relationship. Until now I seriously can't really tell what is true love which every long lasting couple seems to talk about. My longest relationship lasted as long as it did because we has common interests and generally communicate like best freinds do except with more initmate contact. It didn't last so I guess thats not true love.
Pardon this entry, just something I felt I should post and perhaps reflect upon in the future. Miserable Day....Another SSDD day, woke up early to fetch Ron and he made me wait for 30++ minutes and I ended up late in class AGAIN. WHen will this curse everstop. To make matters worse I found out my FCM test is next week....may god have mercy on my soul since my track record for maths was horrible since I left high school.
On a brighter note I just found out the Apple Macbook can run PC stuff without any issues now.Looks like its bye bye to a PC when I go out and work. I WILL get an I book even if it kills me. Here isa pic of it :
July 11 Motivation SongTHis song kinda gets me going during my mostscrewed up moments like right frackin now. These guys music I can seriously relate to in my everyday life. Do Check them out.
Artiste : Rascal Flatts
Song : Stand
You feel like a candle in a hurricane Just like a picture with a broken frame Alone and helpless Like you've lost your fight But you'll be alright [Chorus:] Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause its all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you Stand, Then you stand Life's like a novel With the end ripped out The edge of a canyon With only one way down Take what you're given before its gone Start holding on, keep holding on [Repeat Chorus] Everytime you get up And get back in the race One more small piece of you Starts to fall into place Ooohhh [Repeat Chorus] Pointless EntryRegular day with the SSDD routine happening again. As usual, I came uber late for class. PD is quite a BS subject anyway and I can't seem to bring myself to puh hard to complete the project. Mr. Elnagkovan might be a good mentor whenyu are working in a company but he just lacks the teaching flair displayed by lecturers like Mr. Punithan, Zarak and Karl(if you somehow visit this blog sir, somebody girl in the class has a crush on you). I kind of pity the guy but I just can't seem to focus on thet subject.
After that class we hada 5 hour break which we spent in Shukrans waiting for Jason. Unfortunately he was down with food poisoning so we ended up spending the rest of that 5 hours doing VB.net coding for the SEP assignment which sucks to say the least. I also decided to skip FCM, my hatred for maths seems to have gotten the better of me and the prospect of seeing a male lecturer who does female gestures isn't exactly promising. I do not hate the guy, just that sometimes it just gets too much considerig I have been in has classes for too many times. How Superman's Legacy Can Continue...Why in the world does Superman's legacy still continues in the modern world. Surely a guy wearing a red cape and red underwear outside has no place in the world where such campy costumes would guarentee you butt getting kicked. Yet he is still loved by most Americans, why? Well the answer is simple, he is the ideal Ameican citizen and the ideal America as a whole.
American's tend to think of themselves as Superman being the sole superpower in the world. Idealistic, noble, pure and invincible. THis is reflected by their foreign policy and the image which they try to project to the world via the pop culture which they have successfully exported all aroudn the world. Superman like America even in their worse moments are incapable of any form of evil or malice. Americans just lose their sense of direction which Superman occasionally does as well and commit acts that leave reprucssions that unlike those in the Superman's world leave scars and long term reprucssions that cannot be solved by just one heroic deed.
Who can fault a nation that brings up its youth with heroes such as this to have leaders who believe in their nation's supremacy and impose their brand of justice and order on others with good intentions but do not necessarily have the itended outcome? They are victims of their own pop culture and their nation's status as the world's remaining superpower.
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